Conflict-Of-Interest?

Romantically or professionally? Let's dive into it a little bit more for this story line, Brian's holding onto something that he's not supposed to have? And, yet, he finds so difficult to let go of it......the passionate longing of 25yrs for Lydia yet eventually collided with his ultimate professional life...something he had set his mind on ever since he was a young child at the age of 8. Going West, young man (in his head). So he met the ultimate prize of his dream in 1999, yet .....